Saturday, January 23, 2010

The Broken Hearted

The heart is the one of the most important internal organs that we possess. When it stops working everything ends. With that being said, it is also no surprise that this organ holds so much meaning for us. It is from this organ that our life blood is pumped. It is also from this organ that we hold, accept and give love. We use phrases like; “You touch my heart” or “I feel you in my heart”. I have never heard anyone say; “I love you with all of my pancreas”. LOL! It just doesn’t hold the same meaning for us.

The Lord didn’t just put our heart anywhere; he put it in the center of our body. Why? It is the center of our life. So often we give our heart to someone because we feel a strong, lasting love we have never felt before. We feel at times that we can fly, and love could never feel sweeter than it does with this person right now. IT JUST FEELS RIGHT! And then suddenly this love seems to break, it crumbles and slowly what we were feeling disappears and leaves us with a huge hole in our heart.

We try to figure out what went wrong. We ask ourselves, was I just dreaming? Was any of this real? Did I make this all up? WHY DOES IT HURT SO MUCH!? And WILL I EVER HEAL AND LOVE AGAIN?!

Sometimes after we have experienced heart break we try to ignore what happened, we pretend that we are OK. We want to hurry up through the process and all we want is FOR THE PAIN TO GO AWAY!

Please consider this. Your heart is as fragile as a glass vase. It holds love. We can “see” the love we have for someone and in turn we can “see” into the heart of the one we love. When our heart breaks, it becomes shattered, and it falls into pieces. Instead of feeling whole we feel as if pieces of our heart are missing. At this point our heart looks just like a 1000 piece puzzle set. The pieces that are missing are the ones we gave away. How quickly can you put a 1000 piece puzzle together? One day, two days? Or does it take weeks, or maybe months?

The first thing we do when we put a puzzle together is we look for the corner pieces, don’t we? Faith in God is the first corner piece we look for. Prayer is the second corner piece. Forgiveness is the third corner piece and Patience is the fourth corner piece.

Everything takes time. Perhaps a broken heart is one of the longest healing processes I know. I have had many broken hearts, I tell myself never again! But I have learned that within every loving relationship I have had, and was almost destroyed by, taught me many lessons.

I have learned a lot about myself. What do I really want? What am I looking for, what do I need from someone? What am I willing to put up with? What am I willing to sacrifice for this person? And the most important thing I have learned is that I will never lose MYSELF to make someone else happy.

Every time we meet someone, or share life with someone, it is for a reason. We can learn something from them and in turn they learn something from us. It is never a waste of time and having regrets about past relationships is just plain STUPID! If you never take a chance you will never find the true one the Lord has for you. Life is a learning process. You stop learning when you are dead! Well, not really but that is an entirely new subject!

When we are alone and we are healing it is in those times that we CAN grow the most. We focus on ourselves and we find who we are. It is also in those times that the Good Father and His Son lend an ear and listen to us as we pour our broken heart out in front of them. You don’t have to put the pieces back together by yourself. Just ask them for HELP!

Saturday, January 16, 2010


My Dad has a favorite saying that he often said to me when I was growing up; “Life is like a rat race!” All too often in life we are running from one thing to another. We schedule too many things within a week’s time and then complain that we feel we are STRESSED OUT! We scream and yell at our family and fight with them.

Sometimes we like to convince ourselves that we are powerless and that we are victims of our own life. PLEASE! REALLY?! You and I are in complete control of our life. Is it really someone else’s fault when we make our own plans? Who decided to schedule four soccer practices, two dance classes, Boy Scout and Girl Scout meetings all in one week? WE DID!

Suddenly we find that we don’t have any time on the weekend for God. We tell Him we are tired, we are exhausted and all we want is ONE DAY TO REST! And then we convince ourselves that HE will understand. Oh, He does. He is the only one that will always understand us. I’m pretty sure there are times where after I tell him I am so tired and worn out that I just don’t have time to do something for Him that He simply smiles and shakes His head.

But what happens over time? We stop talking to Him, we stop going to church to see and hear Him. We have no time to help anyone, including ourselves. Is this life that we currently are drowning in what God really intended for us to live in? Is our life supposed to feel like one never ending ball of stress and grief?

STOP, SLOW DOWN! Please take a look at your life. Can you make changes? Yes! Will you make changes? You get only one life to build a relationship with God and his Son. Your life should be filled with joy, peace, comfort and most of all love.

If these things are lacking then maybe it is time to STOP, DROP AND PRAY! Take a long look at the way you are living your life. Stop complicating it with so many things that God keeps getting forgotten and pushed to the “back seat” of your life.
Don’t be a victim of your life! You make all the decisions that affect you. You can change your life right now! There is still time to find the Lord, He is right where you left him the last time you spoke to him…in your heart, waiting for you!

Saturday, January 9, 2010


Spirits have a greater effect on us than we think. Every book or song written, every movie or TV show produced was inspired by a spirit. Some make us laugh; bring joy to our hearts or cause us to cry. Then there are others that scare us.

Currently there are a number of spirits that have a strangle hold on our world. The first is the spirit of FEAR! It comes to us very quietly; we almost don’t even know it is there. It comes when we are at our weakest and it whispers things in our ears and speaks directly into our heart causing hope to dissipate and joy to fade. Suddenly anguish grows with uncertainty and soon we are filled with fear. We pull back from life and go inside ourselves to hide.

The second spirit works in tandem with fear. He is called DEPRESSION. Over the past few years I have watch angels destroy demons and spirits, but these two spirits cannot be destroyed. When I asked why, I was told “because man must be tested!” There have been times in my life where both of these spirits played with me. Yes I use the word “played” because to them it is a game. The only reason Satan employs them is to cause us humans pain and unrest. And they have been around before time began so they are really good at what they do. But we under estimate them all the time.

There have been two times in my life where depression over took me. The last time was this past year. Depression works very quietly and methodically. When we become devastated by something in our life it strikes us to the core of our heart, and that is when he comes. He sneaks in, the first thing he does is he builds on the “hurt” and then he causes us to feel tired, we believe there is no hope in our current situation. We draw back from our friends and family because all we want to do is to be left alone. BUT WE ARE NOT ALONE!

Fear steps in and tells us there is no end to what we feel, depression backs him up and we start to fall deeper and deeper within ourselves to the point where we lose our joy and life becomes nothing to us. And then another spirit steps in, the spirit of SUICIDE.

All of these spirits are filled with deceit. They ALL lie to us, but Suicide is the biggest liar of them all. He tells us if we take our life it will get better and everything will change, but that is NOT what happens. When we take our life, we are taken to realm where all three of these spirits torment us for all eternity. And we have no physical body so we can’t walk away or ignore them any longer. Some would call this Hell!

I’ll be honest with you; I was on anti-depression medication for over a year the first time. But last year this fight with depression was worse than before and I didn’t want meds this time. I found myself driving to work one day and I began to break down and cry. I went to the Doctor and explained what had been happing to me, that all of a sudden I would just cry, I told him either I was ovulating or I was depressed. LOL! He said I was depressed and put me on a medication. The problem was I had some side effects this time.

This whole time I kept telling God, “YOU CAN FIX ME WITH ONE THOUGHT!” I prayed and prayed, and pleaded with Him all the time. And after only after a very short period of time I woke up one morning and said to myself you don’t need these meds anymore. And I was done with all of these spirits!

What allies do we have to help us fight these spirits off? FAITH! PRAYER! AND TRUST IN GOD! And knowing these SPIRITS are there to try and destroy us. We are not ignorant any longer as to what is around us. Spirits are REAL! If you are depressed go to your doctor, HE IS ANOTHER ALLY, and get medication to help yourself. You are NOT weak because you need meds. If you have side effects try another med. Depression goes deep into the brain's chemistry and these meds help US change the negative, defeated outlook we may have in our lives and it give us a fighting chance!

DON’T GIVE UP! YOU HOLD THE KEY TO CHANGE YOUR LIFE and God is there to help YOU, help YOURSELF! Keep fighting!